Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Now That You Mention It

I've been reflecting for the last ten minutes, while I ironed a shirt to wear tomorrow so I can make sure everyone's hockey sticks are in tip top shape.

I've been thinking about the message, the purpose of the Mental Health Blog Party and I think that even though I'm in a disastrous place right now, I gotta make an effort to join my fellow bloggers in getting the message out.

Here it comes.
Mental Health Blog Party Badge

The purpose and the message is this:

Good mental health is so very important.  I've never had any, so I am just going by other people's opinions here, you understand.  However I know what I feel I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.  So I have to assume, and believe, that good mental health is something to be striven for.  To work at.  It's eluded me so far, but it won't forever.

Regular readers will know I've been this way for some time.  I've made efforts at getting help too.  Tried a few different drugs, visited with a retired psychiatrist who doesn't seem to acknowledge that he is in fact retired, the story goes on.

After five years on various drugs that kept me from feeling the darkest of dark but also kept me from feeling extra-positive, I decided to go it alone.  It's not gone well.  I don't know what to do.  For me, drugs are awful things that make a mess of my insides, do little for depression, and kind of put a filter on everything else.  You may (I hope) have better results, but my next step is a mystery.

But here is what I do know.  You gotta try.  If I hadn't started the process of asking for help with my Doctor five... oh my it's been six years ago now... I'd probably not be around.  Now I am in a precarious place but I know more about the process, more about how drugs affect me, and more about how I can control the dark feelings.  Most times.

You gotta start someplace.  Mine's not the most inspiring tale of recovery, but it is a tale if, "this is a long process and not all things work for all people so you might have to try more then one."  Which really, is a rather long title for a tale.

You've heard all the usual things, "tell your Doctor," "tell a friend," "call a help line," and so on.

I'm going to tell you to do something different.  Start reading.  learn all you can about how you feel and why you might be feeling it.  I'll even give you a starting point.  All the posts for the May 18th Mental Health Blog Party are a great place to start learning, and reading, and hopefully, recovering.  You don't even need to scroll up... I'll help you out here.  I know I have a lot of reading ahead of me.

Once you are better informed, your choice on what to do next might be clearer.  At the very least you should be able to understand what's going on.  And that's a big portion of the battle.

Carry on, friends.


  1. This is a beautiful post! & you have given some very very important and pertinent advice. Thank you ever so much.

    And as for drugs etc. I think drugs can be good. But when they are made, and undergo clinical trials in different phases, the results are all percentages. Yes they see individual patients etc, but overall if the drug passes a certain percentage it is used in clinical practice. I just think there are some people who respond well to drugs, and others who do not. After all, we all are unique.

    And mental health is one of those things that we're still trying to learn about. It's not something you can say for example, 'there's inflammation of that organ' or 'there's an obstruction of that duct' etc etc.

    But once again. Amazing post! :)

  2. Hello! I found your blog through the blog party and I will have a look around at some of your other posts shortly.

    Not knowing what true happiness is could resonate with a lot of people. Chronic depression is the absolute pits and like you, I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

    I'm lucky that meds make a difference for me. They are far than perfect but are better than nothing. I hope you come to find something that helps and gives you some more hope.

    As to 'educating yourself', I completely agree that it's one of the best things you can for yourself.

    Take care :)

  3. Welcome Bec, and thanks for the kind words. In all things, I think education is key! Knowledge is power, according to Schoolhouse Rock...


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