I was thinking about this blog recently and so decided to log in and see what was around.
As we previously learned, journaling didn't really work for me. It didn't have he positive effect I would have hoped for. Quite the opposite, really. And I tried, I did. I gave it a shot, which you can read all about by scrolling.
Journaling/blogging didn't work for me, but of course, neither did the multiple years I spent on anti-depressants.
Yes, I'm older. Yes, I still feel like garbage most days. No, nothing helped or, expect, ever will help. Just gotta get through the next 20-30 years and that'll be it.
I will say that looking back at some of these posts I feel stirrings of pride at the quality of some of the writing. So that's something I suppose. I'd like to do that more often, perhaps though not on the same subject matter.
So hi. Dropping in to say I'm still alive. Perhaps a further update in 2031.
