Thursday, May 19, 2011

And Another Thing

Oh wait, there's more.  

The previously mentioned life crisis compounded by depression (and a full moon) is just one thing.  

Couple weeks ago I find that someone in my family is experiencing extreme episodes of anxiety and depression.  That person is elderly and unfortunately not able to take medication.  Of course, that person also comes from a generation where mental health problems were thought of very differently.  

"It's a weakness."  "Don't be silly."  "Just get over it."  "We don't talk about such things."  You know how it goes.

I want to be able to say, "Hey.  I know how you feel.  I feel the same way.  It's OK to talk about it with someone.  You aren't alone.  There is help available.  It's not like it used to be.  Me too."


I cannot physically make myself do it. 

I have had an up and down life, thats for sure.  Nothing, however, has ever made me feel more failure than my inability to offer support to others who are saddled with this horrible affliction.  

No one knows the extent of my condition.  No one except me.  The fact that I can't share...quite frankly, hurts.  The fact that I can't share and help make a loved one feel maybe a bit better, devastates me.

Devastation at work, and devastation in the family.  This is not a good recipe.

There is a positive point, albeit not for me.  The elderly family member in question is now suffering in silence.  The immediate family has discovered something is wrong, and I know someone else is helping that person get help.  However I am sure that help would be enhanced by some understanding and support from me.  I have failed to be a good person. Dammit.

I'd say the question of whether mental health problems can be genetic has been answered for my family.


  1. I guess you're right, when we see loved ones hurting or in need of help and we are for whatever reason unable to help really does hurt.

    But don't ever think you're not helping anybody at all. Your blog, this blog is an inspiration to read. So thank you.

  2. As always Nas, thanks for all the kind words throughout my various scribblings.


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